I am in constant need of being around people. Once I was told that expressing ones emotions, particularly those not most cheerful, is to show all of the weaknesses you have. Since that moment, a sense of independence and self-sufficiency has grown inside me. It has grown to the point that when I started to understand my emotions, I realised that showing them is just a part of being fragile which is a part of being human.
I was not able to show them anymore. I had found myself as an opposite to romance, empathy or subtlety, and yet I felt like I was full of those, but the bizarreness inside me would not let them out in everyday life. This is the moment photography helped me. I feel like my photographs are my testimony to the world, of having emotions inside. I am not sure I understand them completely as I do not understand myself completely yet, but every time I pick up the roll and see that what was in my head earlier was achieved in my photographs, I do not feel much of a satisfaction neither I am proud. I feel calm and peace. These photos calm me down and give hope for one day to be able to express myself in real life, like I do now through my photographs.
I am constantly developing. This time last year I could not imagine sharing my art with other people, especially those who are close to me. I would feel ashamed, of myself, of showing too much of my personal and intimate side. The moment they accepted it made me realise I do not need anybody's acceptance as permission to do what I am doing. I only have to stay true to myself, and wait for the moment when I will be able to convey how I feel through my words, instead of just my photographs.
Karina Waliczek is a 23 year old photographer born in Siemianowice Śląskie, Poland, and currently living in Copenhagen, Denmark.